I just took a stroll down memory lane, II was reading my very first blog which I started somewhere in 2003. Reading made me realize I was alot more care free back down and my entries were full of joy and alot more crapiness..haha. Hmm must be the sign of maturity I guess, I'm still joyful, just a little bit older and wiser I guess, I think I'm going to post up my previous entries that most of you have not read. I kind of like this one

July 4thh 2003

If words were the expression of one's soul, then no amount of writing could ever say what's in the very depths of my heart. I'm just so amaze at times where I can feel so much without ever being sure of what is it that I'm feeling for. Must be the rain, yeah that's my excuse for everything, blame it on the rain :)

I wish I can tell you all what the feeling is like, but something's even the best of writers are lost for words. I just feel like going to the beach and watching the sunrise, to be lost in the moment or go dancing under the moonlight, sounds crazy but..that's just the way I am.

I don't think it's love cause I don't think I can love anyone at the moment, although one day I know I will. I like 80s music, everything sounds so sweet. I'm listening to Breathe's 'How Can I Fall". It talks about how this guy wants so badly wants to fall in love with this girl, but can't seem to and he decides to leaves but promises to marry her one day. Don't really understand it but it sounds nice.

It's days like these, that makes you remember all the people in your life that means something. Over the years especially in college, I've gotten to know some really wonderful people. And everyone of them have touch my life in their own special way. It's funny how you can impact someone's life without actually realizing it.

Maybe this feeling is just the peace that God has given me, to not worry about the things around me, but letting Him lead my life. I guess it's that assurance I have in a God that will never fail me

There are so many things in my life that contribute to me being happy and though sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it, but I know it's the best gift that I could be given. If you are reading this, just know that you probably change my life in your own way and for that I thank you

God Bless and smile always