I Don't Want To Be by Gavin Degraw

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
See, not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be

Howdy floks..its been a while. Lets see where do I begin my story ? I'm working for my dad's company even though I much rather be working elsewhere. Its not that I don't like working for my dad, it is just that working for your dad is like not really working you know what I mean? The pay is good though and I guess my dad could use an I.T person around but somehow I just know this is not what I want to be doing. Come to think of it other than going to full time ministry I never had any desire to do anything else. I guess that is what happens when you know what God's will for your life is. I don't know how to explain it but I guess there is a sense of emptiness in what I'm doing now. I guess I shall just do the best I can for now until the lord leads me to a new place. Well that is basically how I've been feeling over the past two week or so. It's amazing how growing up I use to have these big dreams for my life but now that I've grown up, they seem to pale in comparison to what I want to do for God. There is just a deep sense of wanting to do so much more for God at this moment in my life

Anyway it was Wan's Birthday last week, I got him a copy of the Sims 2, reminds me of someone..sigh I wonder what might have been. Anyway Wan is without a doubt my bestest bud. He has been there for me in almost every situation over the past six years of my life. I guess you dont find very true friendship very often but I guess I'm just thankful to have not only Wan but a whole bunch of other guys and gals who truly capture the true meaning of friendship. Hehe I'm being poetic again.. Oh well got to get to 'work'..hehe see you guys soon . *smile*

Hey peeps...I know I haven't been blogging much lately. I guess for me this is a period of observation for me. Lately I find myself fascinated by the people around me. Everyone seems to have interesting lives these days. I guess I'm taking time to smell the roses so to speak...hehe

Anyway something interesting did happen, I receive a rather nice sms with a bible verse but I have no idea who sent it. Maybe I should sms the person back to say thank you or something...hmm life is funny like that sometimes...haha. And ya I gave myself until October to find a job if not then I guess I'll be working for my dad...which is not too bad I supposed. Oh well till I have the mood to write more, you peeps have a great day tomorrow.

RESTING IN GOD'S WILL FOR US

"Cease striving and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10 NASB

I recently heard from a man who used to have a very successful career as a pastor, but who had fallen on hard times, and had been unemployed in recent years. Though he had impressive qualifications, including plenty of experience, he could not find a church that would hire him, because of some problems in his past that he had long overcome. He shared with me how he was becoming increasingly frustrated and despondent over the injustice of it all, and he was growing weary of constantly trying to figure out exactly what he should do.

After I earnestly prayed for this man, I shared with him some biblical truths that have encouraged me over the years. In John 19:11 (NIV), Jesus told His persecutors, "You would have no power over Me if it were not given to you from above." If the Lord allows others to turn their backs on us, or to do us wrong, we can take comfort in the fact that He has a divine purpose for it, and that He will work it out for our good somehow. (Romans 8:28) Knowing this will help keep us free from bitterness, resentment, and unforgiveness toward those who have treated us unfairly, or who we feel may be hindering our progress or success.

I have often taken great comfort in the words of John the Baptist, when his followers came to him distraught over the fact that he was losing many of his disciples to Jesus: "A man can receive only what is given him from heaven." (John 3:27 NIV) These words remind me that I can "enter God's rest," where my life and ministry are concerned, and I can trust the Lord to help me fulfill my God-given purpose and potential, as long as I'm earnestly seeking to do His will on a daily basis. (Hebrews 4:3) When I'm striving for more than the Lord has ordained for me, I get nowhere, and I only end up feeling frustrated, angry, and depressed. Scripture reminds us, "Cease striving and know that I am God." (Psalm 46:10 NASB) The Lord doesn't want us to be driven; He wants us to be led--by His Spirit. (Romans 8:14) If we will let God be God in our lives, and yield to His divine plans for us, we will experience the abundant, victorious life that Jesus died for us to have.

Whenever I face disappointment or difficulty of any kind, one of the first things I do is claim God's promise which says, "The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me." (Psalm 138:8 NIV) This reminds me that no matter what obstacles come my way, God is in control, and He will move heaven and earth to see that His perfect plans for me come to pass. In Isaiah 43:13 (AMP), the Lord promises: "I will work, and who can hinder or reverse it?" When the time is right in the Lord's sight, no one--not even the devil himself--will be able to stop God's blessings and rewards from reaching us. We don't have to threaten, or scheme, or become greedy graspers. All we have to do is rest in God, knowing that He has a bright and beautiful future for us that far exceeds our wildest dreams!

Lord, when I face trials and disappointments in this life, remind me that You are in control. Guard me from the bitterness and resentment that can hinder my prayers and my fellowship with You. Help me to cease striving, and to enter Your rest, where my future is concerned. Thank You that as I live my life for You, You will turn every obstacle that comes my way into a steppingstone to success!

Taken from Jesus Freak Hideout

The interview was so super stressful...first they made you take a 20 questions test, the question were crazy...erm like 'define the job you are applying for", how on earth are you supposed to define what is an MIS officer...and get this the last question was in no less than 100 words please describe yourself...madness. After all that they ask you to wait even longer and they send you to be interview by this lady, I was a lil nervous but I tried to be as charming as possiblle..haha, ya don't think I will get through on my wit alone :) Anyway she said the scariest thing I ever heard "This is your second screening, if you get selected, then there will be more interviews..oh boy.. I know most of you think I should go work for my dad, but I guess I really want to be out on my own and not depend too much on my parents..dont know la..hehe.

Anyways today is Bell's birthday. all together now let's sing ..happy birthday to you, .happy birthday to you. .happy birthday to Bel. .happy birthday to you...hehe hope you had a wonderful day. Oh yeah and Nikki is out of Malaysian Idol...boo hoo..what nonsense...she was one of the better singers. Sometimes I think Malaysian are tone deaf or they are just voting based on popularity. I tell you if the ah beng fella..Vic wins I'll just die..hehe

And Sheryl I'm so so so going to miss you, be good in U.K..and yes yes I'll wait for you..hahaha. Anyways it wasn't exactly a good day today but I know with God all things are possible and I will cling on to the verse that says "Christ in me the hope of glory"...

Hey peeps...morning...haha I can hear a rooster crowing...which one of my crazy neighbors has rooster in the city. I used to remember where I used to go visit my grandparents in Ipoh, they had all these farm animals...not like cows la but chickens and rabbits ect... Wait are rabbits farm animals? hehe. Anywayz I am going for a job interview this Monday with a company called Celframe, judging for the website it looks like some canggih it company, but they do seem a little desperate to get employees based on how the information posted on the site. Haha maybe it's not so good to mention that during the interview. I am intrigue by this company coz they seem very laid back which is always a good thing...hehe.

Yeah and I started watching Queer Eye For The Straight Guy, just wanted to see what was all the fuss about, turns out its a pretty good show. What reality TV show will those crazy peeps in U.S come up next? Please pray for me ya for this Monday hopefully I can charm my way through and they just fall in love with me much in the same way all of you have...haha.